Have you ever trusted someone so much then all of a sudden couldn't anymore? I have finally figured out  that my brain works differently then other peoples i swear it has this invisible shield that likes to negate random things from my brain like right now the whole concept on actually crying is clear out the window. I just found out Patricia leaves Monday for florida now i knew she was moving i just didn't expect it to come this quickly i mean she's one of my best friends and i'm going to miss her and i want to cry i just cant i cant remember the last time i was actually able to cry about something like this with out snapping but then again that may be  why i cant cry i'm afraid ill snap again..... but friday after exams  i plan to spend the day with Sis and Natalie  and then saturday i think our ragtag group (we are twilight characters i'm Emmett) is actually going to have our twilight get together as a good bye party for sis i know its lame but we've been planning this for awhile and are finally doing it and i want to find a way to get some money together so that i can get her a plane ticket for prom so that i can still go with her like we agreed last year....damn i have a lot on my mind and i have no idea how to get it all out i think im getting my hair cut tonight if my mom can keep her promise. Also at school today i found out i'm planning someone's wedding and it is to include all black leather whips and pink fuzzy handcuffs thats a little kinky for me but i think ill manage some how i just wonder what shade  of pink  he wants... and on  that note ... thats all i have for now....
Love ya, 
Elizabeth